One of my issues in life is not feeling like I am able to do enough stuff. I enjoy filling my life up with things to accomplish. So, I recently had a conversation with a friend that I know speaks from the brain. I am not saying he doesn’t have a heart, but he does not let his emotions cloud his sound judgment. I went to him with my feelings, knowing he would give me back factual information and cut through the ambiguity of my emotions. while he said many encouraging things, the craziest one was to get a part-time job. My medical team and my lawyers would kill me. My body would give out. I don’t expect him to know all of the details concerning my condition, however it got the wheels turning, and THAT is what I needed from him. I am a woman of many talents and while many of my body parts are failing me right now, I have not given up the hope of going back to living a semi-normal life.
That takes money. While I languish, waiting for disability, I feel very useless. So, in his eyes, getting a job will fix some of those problems. Still, I can’t work by someone else’s hours or by their expectations of my body.
Then it dawned on me. I have been a business owner since 2010. I ended up having to get surgery on my nose and throat shortly thereafter and then the accident and the brain surgery, but I don’t need to get a job. I’m a freaking BOSS! Hahahaha.
He told me to figure out what I was still good at, I bet I can still do loom work and I would love to design a set of handbags. So, sometimes, you have to go to someone who sounds like they are being harsh (he never used a harsh or condescending tone, he is always very matter-of-fact and pleasant in delivery) to force you to take that really hard look at yourself and say what have I been missing? This person said this, this person said this, and how do I out it all back together? Well, I put it back together and now I am getting ready to reopen the creative doors of Haus Of Simeon and I am going to not get a job, I am going to create the job.
Have faith in yourselves, my lovelies!!
Also, check out The Life Of A Music Monkey because I am up to some fun stuff over there talkin bout Chiari and right now anxiety and how I am working through some of my scariest moments of anxiety.