After the gnarley headache, the nausea is the worst symptom I experience on the constant basis. It is usually low level, but if the weather changes or the headache increases, nausea will shoot up and become THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS! My daughter is hungry? NAUSEA! Front door unlocked? NAUSEA! House on fire? NAUSEA! LET ME LIVE!!!!
For most people it is a feeling they may have for a few hours or days, a couple weeks if you are pregnant (unless you are me, then 40 weeks) but for me it has been over two years and really, I am sick of it (no pun intended, but good for me). It’s that feeling of sick RIGHT before you actually throw up but I just don’t always throw up. I pray that I won’t as it makes for a terrible headache/vomit cycle that can get out of control quickly.
The worst is when I have a day planned and NAUSEA hits me. It is paralyzing. You don’t move unless it is to a more laying down position. I lay there thinking about the things I was going to do. Some things are only available for a time like dinner with friends or sales, some things I can do later, but the worst things are the ones I have planned with my daughter because she gets the short end of the stick. She often ends up supplying my ginger ale and ice and ice packs.
I want to be able to do the things that I plan but I am at the mercy of a body that is kind of confused right now. Most days I get through it, I ignore it, I get ginger or drink ginger ale, but some days, nothing but meds can cut through the nausea and the meds come with their own set of problems.
So, if you know me and I tell you I just don’t feel good, that is actually code for, I could throw up at any moment. I am just being polite.