I have done laundry since I was a child. I did not grow up with my mother doing my chores for me. It’s just one of those parts of life that takes a bit of time, but usually isn’t the worst thing.
Increasingly, I lack the energy to do the laundry. I only do my own laundry, I expect my daughter to wash her own stuff (mom is not spelled m-a-i-d, as momma used to say) so it isn’t like I have an unreasonable amount of laundry. I wash once a week, so it isn’t like I have a build up. I just have laundry problems now.
Problem: Forgetting I washed clothes in the first place.
Solution: Only wash when staying home, leave the laundry room door open to hear the buzzer.
Problem: Leaving clothes in the dryer.
Solution: If I have the energy, I will just hang everything up to dry so it’s already on hangers and not wrinkled. Otherwise, stay home, leave laundry room door open to hear buzzer.
Problem: Clean clothes pile up.
Solution: If I have made it past the first two problems, I am probably ready to take a nap. If I can manage, I separate the clothes that need to be hung up and I fold everything else. FOLDING IS TIRING! I just deflate quickly from folding. Then I lack the will to hang up anything. Life starts to look like this:
I took a nap beside this pile of clothes and hangers. Imagine my dismay when I awoke and it was just as I had left it! Betrayed by my own clothing. It was sad. It took 8 hours to FOLD two loads of laundry. Then I slept all day the next day.
It seemed like such an insignificant task my whole life. Now when laundry day comes, I am racked with anxiety about if I will be able to complete everything. If I have a headache, I already know the answer is no. If I don’t have a headache, I can probably do it, but I will likely get a headache.
In the end, the laundry has to be done. Not just because I have to have clean clothes, but because I have a daughter that looks at me to see how I handle my struggle. If she has to watch me struggle for hours, then I am teaching her that the struggle is real and we have to go through it, but we can get through if we persevere. Sometimes the solution is to go slow and be methodical and cry if you have to because laundry is tedious and frustrating yet it can be done.
So, for all my people out there who feel like the smallest tasks are the biggest problems, take heart and know that you are not alone. I know it is hard to not compare yourself to the before times or to other people who can do more, but we have to remember that we are individuals who have issues that can impact any or every part of our lives. We don’t have to feel less-than because of it. Of course it is easier for me to type that than to live that out, but it is something I have been working on daily. I encourage you to do the same if you are able.
For the people reading this who don’t really understand what the big deal is, I as you to imagine only being able to complete 3 tasks a day before you need a nap. So, after shower and breakfast, you can do one more thing. Pray that it isn’t laundry! It could be a doctor appointment, or two scheduled on the same day! Now you are dead tired. Le sigh. Now imagine that every day you had to choose a certain number of things you could do. Would you skip your shower to get something else done? Now, imagine that 1/3 of the time, you aren’t even going to be able to get out of bed except to go to the restroom. Those 3 things you normally do are now piling up. It feels like this for some of us. it’s not a great feeling because we really just want to lead “normal” lives, but we hold out hope that one day we will find answers…or at least that someone will feed us and hang up our clothes so we can do something fun too!