My life is a carefully planned and organized mess. Looking at my phone, I have the same things happening almost every week and that is good because I have developed a certain expectation of how my week will go:
- Sunday – Church
- Monday – Helps Class
- Tuesday – Therapy
- Wednesday – Bible Study, Lunch, Church
- Thursday – Kiddo At Class
- Friday – Study for Monday
- Saturday- Study for Wednesday
At times something is skipped or added, but this is the basic schedule outside of regular everyday stuff. So, next week, I don’t have therapy. That gives me a whole day at home to prepare for my walk! Or sleep. That is one of my favorite activities.
Every so often a day happens when there is no studying, no school, no class prep, no planned activity and I get to go outside into nature and just enjoy being outside. It’s the most enjoyable for me when I can go without an expected return time. When I can just go and spend hours among the wildlife and plants is when I feel the most normal. I can still smell the plants and feel the breeze and it awakens a familiar feeling of peace and joy inside of me. I used to take a lot more time to go do these things but since my surgery I don’t have the tolerance for hot or cold so I have to pick specific times to be out.
Still, the sacrifice is worth it because for a brief period of time I feel like me. There are no worries or doctors or tests. There is only nature and Michelle.
Our lives can be so hectic and are often spent inside the house or the car or a doctor office. If you get the opportunity to spend time outside doing nothing, TAKE IT! It is always best (in my opinion) if you can do it alone because other people tend to distract from true relaxation. I don’t like to mix people and nature. You never know who is going to go out with raspberry lip balm and get chased by giant bugs. This person may not be a great companion in nature. They likely are great to spend time watching anime with.
I feel that it is important to find something in your life that just allows you to relax. Not the type of relaxing that comes with creating or hiking, I mean where you completely give your body a break, lay in a field, and enjoy the breeze without a care in the world. You think about how awesome it is that you made it to this point and dream of ways to make it more awesome! The most important thing is that you realize that it is healthy to take a break and appreciate the world around you.
It won’t fix your problems or take away your pain, but it helps keep all those feelings in perspective and gives you hope for the future. I want everyone to have a hope that tomorrow is going to be better (despite all the signs) and even if it isn’t we can survive it and still keep our hope. I want hope for everyone.