Lies I Tell Myself: IV

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Lies I tell myself: It isn’t THAT bad! I will be fine. “So this is what it is like to be dying a full life!”

It can be difficult to really KNOW whether the pain is normal or not when dealing with neurological issues.  It doesn’t help that pain is personal even in the temporal sense.  Five years ago, I WOULD NOT have been able to handle this level of constant headache.  I would have thought I was dying.  Today, it hurts, but I am just thankful I can function.

The problem is that sometimes I want to do more and I may enjoy it, but the next day (or few weeks) are filled with misery that can worsen as it flares up.  I HAVE noticed that removing a lot of the grains from my diet (under doctor supervision) my flareups don’t last as long as they used to, and I think it just has to do with foods that can increase inflammatory activity in the body, in my case, the brain.

So, while I pay a lot of attention to my body, maybe I need to change my mindset on my limitations so that I can still have a good time and accomplish things without taxing my body and putting myself at risk for injury or falling (my left leg will stop functioning if overstimulated).  I know I shouldn’t lift things over a certain weight, but I hate feeling like I always need help.  Is my pride really worth my health, though?  No, I don’t think so.  I have gotten better about asking for help, but I still try to do things I know I probably shouldn’t.  I just don’t want to feel un-able.  I want to be able.

The moral of this story is that pride made me dance like it’s 1999 at my daughter’s Sweet Sixteen and I hurt for days!  I had fun, and thank goodness she doesn’t have another big party for at least two years, so I should have recovered by then!  Don’t let this happen to you.  Don’t do it the Michelle way, be safe and just side to side as anything you break down may not be able to put back together and if you drop it like it’s hot, it will stay there until it is cold and someone will have to scrape you up!  Listen to the little pains and know the signs of being tired.  Then, do the right thing.  That is what I’m gonna start doing.  Best part, we can start right now and do some self care.

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4 thoughts on “Lies I Tell Myself: IV

  1. Pingback: Reblog Wednesday: Lies I Tell Myself: IV — chiariconversations – Mom Life With Chiari

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