2019 and the previous decade began as a smoldering newspaper in an alley and ended up as a rocket-propelled burning trash-bin. In 2010 I started working with a major shipping company and I loved my job. In 2015 I had brain surgery. I have very little idea of what has been going on since then but it has been an emotional roller-coaster that has involved my health going from excellent to “can not donate blood or tissue” so there’s that.
I can look back on my life and see change that I swear would have broken me, but I am still here. Where I am couldn’t be further from where I thought I would be in life. 2010 began with me as a broken woman who needed a job and by October 10, 2010 I was working. 2019 ends with a broken body that has not worked a job since October 2015, and I start 2020 very similar to the previous decade. My body and brain are acting a bit broken and even sitting is a chore after so long.
This time I walk confidently into the year without a job and with a half-finished plan and I still expect to achieve something. A few things if I can. I have learned many lessons and I remember a good deal of them! I like to think I do! Most important lesson has been that I have control of myself and sometimes I will suffer the consequences of the actions of another person. Sometimes that person won’t care. Life still goes on. The seasons change. The moon goes through it’s phases. I am not promised tomorrow, so right now is what matters. I can’t change yesterday but I can work toward a better tomorrow.
Thank you for sticking around for this post to come out. I have been working on a book and I only have so much focus and I had to let a few things go while I worked on a dream I didn’t even know I had. I am going back onto my regular schedule after this post and I look forward to sharing the amazing things that have been said to me and the one’s I am confident people will say!
Happy New Year! Happy New Decade! Happy New You!