Lies I tell myself: I am just hungry
I think it is unsettling to have pain and not have a reason for it, so, here is another lie I tell myself about my headaches! I just need to eat something! I just ate? Well, I didn’t eat enough!
It is crazy to think that eggs and bacon are going to fix what is wrong with me, but something about my memory problems gives me this daily dose of hope that things are going to work out just fine once I do a certain thing. Then, when it doesn’t work, I am forced to accept that hunger was not the reason for my pain. It is OBVIOUSLY some other thing that I believe I have control over.
Just wait, I have a whole purse full of lies that I tell myself. I will keep telling them to myself because it keeps me moving forward. I don’t want to lose faith, so I choose to believe that one day, one of these things is going to stop my head from hurting and I can just be thankful that the pain is gone. Like, I would love it if God gave me healing eggs, but if He chooses to allow me to go through this insanity, at least it is interesting and full of plot-twists.
If you are struggling to keep afloat, remember that there is always the chance that pain can go into remission. Whether you share my belief system or not, people have experienced pain relief through various methods and sometimes it is spontaneous. If you don’t get the relief you have been searching for, don’t let that keep you from enjoying however much of your life that you can. if you can only do a little, do it well and be thankful. I know it seems cliche, but thankfulness can have a terrific effect on how you view your situation and once you spot a little bit of good, you are likely to find more and more.
I hope you find the joy you seek, even if it takes time. Know that I am on the same journey as are millions of others in the world.
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